So I made a blog. Here it is.
I decided that writing is a good outlet for me, not that putting it on the internet is even better...but it's good to get some stuff out in the open. This whole "growing up" thing can be hard, but it's good to know that I have friends going through the same things and the same emotions. I guess I enjoy reading people's thoughts so much, I'd post mine for other peoples' enjoyment and/or entertainment, whatever it may be.
I'm learning a lot about myself, and about God. I'm learning to lose myself, and I'm trying to find myself in Him. I'm actually really proud of myself, because recently I decided to stop hating who I am. It worked...I'm not sure how, because I struggled for so long. Some of the reasons for hating myself weren't even my fault, others I'm still working through. I feel like God's just shown me how He's always been there, and it's overwhelming, knowing how much I doubted Him. It really put me in my place, but has also given me peace about everything. It's hard to keep my faith when I don't have that "on fire" feeling for God. But I know now that feelings come and go, It doesn't mean I'm loved less by God. I'm the one that changes, He doesn't.
A good thing about this blog is that writing it out reminds me of my own thoughts. When I have to sit down and think about it, it reminds me of what God has done and is doing in my life. We'll see how this goes...
